Do you deserve an explanation?
A penny for my thoughts?
I would gladly oblige if it weren't for fear,
Fear of tangling up old knots.
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But we can't go back now, no.
Our choices have been made,
and it wouldn't be the same.
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I wouldn't say I'm not bitter
for your moving on so quick
our lives had been tangled together
but you maneuvered through the thick
you let your hair grow long
and let pretty girls suck your dick
your life source is the life of others
and you make me fucking sick.
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I will keep a peppy attitude and a smile on my face
But don't expect me to praise you for being a waste of space.

People surprise me everyday. Every fucking day. I assume everyone I ever knew from high school or before thinks I'm a stuck up bitch, but then this girl I knew in high school comes into where I work and was so polite. She made genuine small talk with me and tried to connect with me even though we never spoke in high school. She knew of me in school and even though we ran in different circles (or what have you) she was nice. It makes me depressed that some one I hardly knew could come in and have a conversation with me 2 years after getting out of school while my best friends from that same time haven't spoken a single word to me in over a year. All my elders told me this would happen, but of course I didn't listen – me who's always late to the party. So there I have it. I'm moving on, and I must say: nearly everyone I've met the past year has been 10 times the person my former friends were.

I thought that if you pretended not to care
that eventually you'd genuinely stop caring
but the weight of you
inside me
wound around me
it is all too much to bear

it was all or nothing, strings or no
nothing is not obtainable, listen!
1 at a time. snip snip snip.
cut the threads that held us together for so long
but there are some too small to see
maybe, but not too small to feel
they will be there forever
they will embed into our skins
they will become part of us
and cut us open

bear them for all the world to see
for our wounds will never heal
if they've never been open or
if they don't get air.

suffocate.
rejuvenate.
listen, kate.