I can't tell if I just have heartburn, or if I've been listening to the same song for an hour and vomiting a little every time I think about some of the choices I've made. I get in these moods, where all of a sudden I need to cling to everything that I feel is slipping away, and it results in bad decisions. Everyone says I just need to cut him off. I feel as though I need to give him some explanation, though I know if I talked to him about it, he'd some how convince me not to.

I've never really been a decisive person.